Désir Décadent

03:11 am: Venus Envy
I fall into the arms of nothingness
In your shallow dreams
Dreams of the day when the stars fall
And crush me beneath the Earth
The time when Mars calls me to battle
When Venus turns her head
But the skies are on my side
Leaving you to only hope
Hope, there is none

03:06 am: Holding On to Heaven
Holding on to heaven
With hell on my back
My fingers are swore and swollen
My spine wants to crack
Every day is another test
To see if I prevail
At night I get no rest
'Cause I'm trying to let loose of hell
I have seen the pearly gates
And I have smelt brimstone
Somewhere out there my angel waits
But these demons won't leave me alone
I know life isn't easy
I Learned this the hard way
Temptation tries to tease me
But I live to see another day

03:03 am: Tis better to have loved and lost
Than to have never loved at all
Tell it to my broken heart
Pick up the shattered pieces
And tell it that it's for the best
To be lonely and broken
Than to be tranquilly solitaire
Tell it to inhale the addictive fumes
That black smothering smoke of love
Breath, breath fair heart
It is the last breath you shall take
Die, die fair heart
Gasp for the freedom that will never come
And slowly close you eyes
A martyr for a lost cause
Break, break fair heart
Shatter like a fragile window pain
Lie broken on the dirty ground
Lifeless, bleeding, dead to the world
Tis better to have loved and lost.

03:00 am: Beloved Aimee
You walked in my door and I was yours
Could I ever make you love me
But we belonged to each other before
We were born, always meant to be
Always meant to embrace
Always meant to love
Always there to put a smile on my face
I know you were sent from above
Forever always seemed too long
Now it not enough time to be with you
It's all too right to be wrong
Never felt a love so pure, so true
Through all the good times
Through all the tears
Through our endless search to find
I've been beside you all these years
In the blink of an eye
I find you in front of me
You close the door behind you, and I ask why
What good have I done to make this be
With the turn of a knob my life, complete
With the cross of a threshold, my angel and I meet

02:59 am: Seed
Before you look into my eyes
Look into the mirror
Before you judge my life
Make your vision clearer
Look inside yourself
Before you look inside of me
Look into your heart
And tell me what you see
The monster inside of you
Grows larger everyday
How can you say you are true
When you let that monster stay
Ignorance is hate
And hate loves to breed
You've waited far to late
And only watered evil's seed
You let that evil grow
Now there's nothing you can do
You have no need to know
The world outside of you

02:48 am: Untitled- 1999
The clock tower tolls
A glance of what the future holds
Time in His dirty hand
It squeezes with forceful resentment
It's uncut fingernails pinch the hour
Until the juices seep down
and collects in its palm

Its teeth sinks through the skin
as if peach fuzz on a warm summer day
Its lips slightly tingle
and spits out the chewed mass

02:38 am: Sonnet XIII
My watering eyes dwell upon thee
In a manner of endless sorrow
Memories bring me to my knee
And my tears bring another morrow
Yet tomorrow is just another day
Another day which my heart passes alone
In search of another way
Which to me is not yet known
My eyes shall dry
As they water the dying roses
As the flowers I shall not die
Answer the question my heart poses
I laugh at the sky above
Hath thou forgotten I still love